Just caught the thread. A few days have passed since the last post and I hope, with all the hope that a fellow human and parent can give, that all is well.
We lost a child during pregnancy (it is sadly and surprisingly common) and there was no easy way through the tragedy. Only time, talking and love made things easier. A few years later we were blessed with a successful pregnancy and our little family is doing well. From sadness there can follow joy.
Take care of yourselves and I hope you all pull through.