Wheres all the knife makers gone off of bcuk

[Silverclaws2]

I'm a little unsure on what the prolem is.

Is it you don't want your real name being linked to silverclaws2 or is it that you don't want your silverclaws2 account to have membership? or something else?

As already said I might be totally overthinking this as I am apt to, given autism and well, what the breakdown did to me in terms of, well, a lot, but I will say, the problem is one pertaining to mental ill health, in that if my mental health is to improve and I feel it will if I can answer the call of the green, I have to rid myself of certain dark markers that exists to remind me of what it is necessary to forget

BCUK is part of my green and a part of my green I am prepared to pay for, potentially for life for my green is life, but the name I use here repels me

And yes I have considered to just quit and come back under a new name, that would be the easiest and may yet be, but I feel this might come across to those that know me here as dishonest, and I have no wish to offend. Further if I take this route to then through awareness of forum rules pertaining to second accounts that may be perceived as ' sock puppet ', request the admin deletes the unwanted account, I worry about the forum knowledge that will be lost in the action for sure deleting accounts will put some serious holes in past conversations.

And so I remain frozen, unsure of what to do except observe myself drifting away yet again, because of the perceived mess I have caused in saying what I needed to say.

As regards the indicated mental ill health and my recovery from, I am in receipt of some specialised trauma therapy.

 

[k9trev]

Your not alone mate i have cptsd managed to change my user name and this place does help with us guys who suffer in silence

 

[k9trev]

Your not alone mate i have cptsd managed to change my user name and this place does help with us guys who suffer in silence im Also undergoing specialised trauma therapies too

 

[Toddy]

As already said I might be totally overthinking this as I am apt to, given autism and well, what the breakdown did to me in terms of, well, a lot, but I will say, the problem is one pertaining to mental ill health, in that if my mental health is to improve and I feel it will if I can answer the call of the green, I have to rid myself of certain dark markers that exists to remind me of what it is necessary to forget

BCUK is part of my green and a part of my green I am prepared to pay for, potentially for life for my green is life, but the name I use here repels me

And yes I have considered to just quit and come back under a new name, that would be the easiest and may yet be, but I feel this might come across to those that know me here as dishonest, and I have no wish to offend. Further if I take this route to then through awareness of forum rules pertaining to second accounts that may be perceived as ' sock puppet ', request the admin deletes the unwanted account, I worry about the forum knowledge that will be lost in the action for sure deleting accounts will put some serious holes in past conversations.

And so I remain frozen, unsure of what to do except observe myself drifting away yet again, because of the perceived mess I have caused in saying what I needed to say.

As regards the indicated mental ill health and my recovery from, I am in receipt of some specialised trauma therapy.

May I suggest that you have a quiet word with Tony ?
He is genuinely one of life's understanding people. Incredibly kind, good at seeing right to the heart of a problem or an issue and finding a good resolution.

I was Toddy before my wee brother was, but it became 'his' name as we grew into adulthood. He died last June. I read it now on forums and, well, it is what it is. I wish he were still here to rant and rail and laugh and joke and create, and just be my wee bother again.
Sometimes names have more hidden within them than we are always comfortable with.

M

 

[Stew]

As already said I might be totally overthinking this as I am apt to, given autism and well, what the breakdown did to me in terms of, well, a lot, but I will say, the problem is one pertaining to mental ill health, in that if my mental health is to improve and I feel it will if I can answer the call of the green, I have to rid myself of certain dark markers that exists to remind me of what it is necessary to forget

BCUK is part of my green and a part of my green I am prepared to pay for, potentially for life for my green is life, but the name I use here repels me

And yes I have considered to just quit and come back under a new name, that would be the easiest and may yet be, but I feel this might come across to those that know me here as dishonest, and I have no wish to offend. Further if I take this route to then through awareness of forum rules pertaining to second accounts that may be perceived as ' sock puppet ', request the admin deletes the unwanted account, I worry about the forum knowledge that will be lost in the action for sure deleting accounts will put some serious holes in past conversations.

And so I remain frozen, unsure of what to do except observe myself drifting away yet again, because of the perceived mess I have caused in saying what I needed to say.

As regards the indicated mental ill health and my recovery from, I am in receipt of some specialised trauma therapy.

That all makes sense to me.

If you're ok with it, I would suggest you ask for a name change. It has been done on forums before and it's generally with a discussion to the admin. This seems a very valid reason to do it and could only be a positive in my eyes.

 

[Broch]

Just to point out @Silverclaws2, if you get a name change, none of your posts are lost and they carry your new name.