Goatboy and Dave - I certainly sympathise with you both. I've had CFS for well over 10 years now and went from a fairly fit guy spending a lot of time outdoors to a bit of a basket case. Was told early on that most people will make a full recovery, some a partial recovery, some will continue to deteriorate and some will stabilise at a certain level but not improve further - I seem to be in the final group. I have good days, bad days and really bad days. It's certainly left me unable to work - whose going to employ someone who can't guarentee to be at work the next day or even complete the current day! Fortunately I have a pension from my previous employer and the wife has a good job so we're luckier than many. I do know though how stressful it is to have to go for health assessments and how arbitrary the whole system can be depending who you see on the day!
Terrible isnt it Herbalist?
They say a photo paints a thousand words.
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On the left, in the white plastic box is my monthly supply of drugs I have to take. Arrived yesterday. On repeat every month. Each one of those little white boxes has 28 pills in. 200 prednisolone tablets. Theres also some drugs not on there, methotrexate, already stored, hence all the folic acid.
On the other side, are some of the things used to combat the nasty side effects of the drugs Im on.
If you click on the photo, you can see the bigger photo, then press the plus sign.
Ive got more pills rattling around inside me than boots. Been on them differing doses for about 5 years now. I take a literal fistful of drugs a day.
And if you stop taking them, bang, youre sweating buckets, and then teeth chatteringly cold, can hardly move, ambulance into A&E, no good. A&E docs, bless em dont have a clue about the disease.
You cant work fully. Nighmare. You go home, push through it. Lots of horrendous side effects. Disgusting, you dont want to know. Much like severe Chronic Lymes I imagine.
I was a very fit youth, yorkshire martial arts champion, lancashire open champion, photos in paper big trophies etc, captain of football teams. Cross country runner, always finished in top three. Very driven.
I used to work in a very high pressure consulting role for multinationals. For 10-20 years. Now, Im a shadow of my former self. Some days ok, other days cant get out of bed. But I still push, because its always been in my nature. Ive always been very 'game'
Horrible thing, losing your health. Horrible Limbolike existence. Wouldnt wish it on anyone.
Why I keep missing meets.
[BTW I pay for all these and dont claim any benefits, not that thats a bad thing]