Feeling for you. I lost two dogs in March & I really thought I would never get over it, in fact, had I a firearm at my disposal I probably wouldn't be typing this, but rivers of tears have been shed, raging anger evacuated & time has worked it's magic...... the dark clouds have lifted & although I had no intention of getting another dog, life just seemed so vacuous without the presence of a hound, so after much reflexion I adopted another dog a week ago now (see bushcraft chatter).....the adventure continues.
Although you arn't ready to hear this just yet I do urge you,when the time is right, to consider adopting a dog from a rescue, you are obviously brilliant dog owners & not only will you make a dog very happy you will also enrich your own lives. You have so much to offer a dog it would be a shame to let it go to waste.